Autopilot mode

Kekadang terlalu banyak hal yang kita lakukan dengan autopilot mode. Balik rumah letak kunci kereta merata2, then bila nak keluar baru kalut mencari sana sini. Kenapa gitu yer? Sometimes dalam solat pun kekadang kita tak sedar apa yang mulut kita kumat kamit dok baca. Sedar2 dah duduk tahiyat akhir n beri salam. Allahuakbar.

Begitulah kita. Banyak hal yang kita lakukan secara rutin telah hilang maknanya. Solat seharusnya menjadi saat utama kita berkomunikasi dengan Allah secara direct. Saat kita berbual intim denganNya Sang Pencipta. Namun dek kerana sudah terlalu biasa, solat kita lakukan dalam autopilot mode sahaja. Boleh jadi kerana itu rasa itu makin hilang.

Sama halnya dengan kunci kereta tadi. Sekiranya kita mengambil perhatian dimana kita meletakkan kunci, insya Allah kita akan sedar dimana letaknya.

Apa yg penting, hidup dengan penuh kesedaran.

Wallahuaklam

Hidup ini suatu suratan

Setiap apa yang berlaku dalam kehidupan ini adalah suatu suratan dan bukan kebetulan. Dari saat kita buka mata, melangkah ke bilik air, menggosok gigi, hatta pmemilih baju pun adalah suatu suratan. Segalanya telah tertulis di luh mahfuz.

Duduknya kita dalam suatu majlis ilmu adalah suratan. Melangkahnya kita ke tempat kerja juga suatu suratan. Makan dan minum kita juga suatu suratan.

Lalu, adakah suratan itu kita jadikan sebagai ibadah ataupun sekadar aktiviti yang berlalu pergi? Bagaimana kita menukarnya menjadi ibadah?

Allahuakbar. Alangkah ruginya jika saat kita buat baik itu tidak bernilai apa2 kerna kita tidak berniat.

Ambillah sesaat dua untuk Tajdid Niat atau memperbaharui niat kita. Fikirkan sejenak, kenapa aku bekerja hari ini? Kenapa aku makan hari ini? Kenapa aku melakukan hal ini? Allahuakbar, re-set niat itu bukan sahaja menukarkan pekerjaan itu ibadah, malah memotivasikan kita untuk melakukan pekerjaan itu dengan lebih baik lagi :)

My maternity leaves

Cepat sungguh masa berlalu. Sedar tak sedar cuti 3 bulan lamanya sudah sampai ke penghujung. Cepatnya :(

The day after tomorrow, i'll be back at work and starting a new journey as a working mom. What i have is mind is that, i need to be strong and sabr and full of compassion at the same time. For the past 3 months, i have umi who have been my right hand in handling hannah. Most of the time umi will bring hannah for her bath, will cook and do all the housechores. And what did i do? Only feed hannah and play with her. Eat and keep umi accompany as 'teman sembang'. And thats all.

For the next three months, i am the one who will do those things. What i am afraid most is that, i lost temper to my dear hannah. Ya Allah, grant me patience and heart full of compassione for You are the Most Merciful and Kind to all.

I hope that i'll be strong and always remind myself that all these are ibadah and Allah knows evethg. Will try not to 'merungut' and deal with all the best as i could for His blessing. And hannah herself is God's blessing. And i know, i have Him by my side, and He grant me with lovely people that will guide me through.

Hannah first swim class

Alhamdulillah tsumma alhamdulillah
Today was such a great big day for me and hannah. Ibu is soooo generous to treat hannah for her first swimming experience. Not really swimmg activity lah for kids kan, but her first experience in pool. And i am super duper exited huuu.

Ibu booked a session at 330pm in wangsa walk for both hannah and abg fatih. I thought they could have a great fun in a same pool. But sadly they couldnt. Maybe for safety reason, i gezz. Hence hannah was placed in a smaller pool that would allow her to kick and response to the buble. While fatih at 2 years old was given a larger pool with balls and few other toys to keep him busy.

Hannah is currently at 5kg (maybe heavier) was given a pelampung attached at her neck. The lady slowly placed hannah in a pool filled with warm water. I was scared at first, but looking at hannah cool-happy faces wipes away all tge scared feeling i have. She looks so calm in the water. Good girl hannah :)

for first few minutes hannah neither paddle nor kick. But after sometime, she started to show some response. As the bubles was added, she started to kick faster. And the way that lady encourage her little customer is sooo much interesting. "Paddle-paddle-kick". *Sampai balik rumah pun saya dan umi dok ulang2 sebut huhu

Tengah syiok2 amek gambar, suddenly my phone pop-up a warning, "u have not enough memory". Waattt??? !/#*)@"_ and dan2 tulah nak kena men-delete. Ggrrrr. It is sooooo frustrating. Tapi sebab terpaksa, delete lah mana2 lagu yang ada tu.

But seriously, i couldnt thank my bff enough for this wonderful experience. I had soooo much fun. And so does hannah. Abg fatih also fully occupied with all the colorful balls had. Thankyou dearie for the treat. Jangan serik taw!! May we have more and more opportunities in the future and have mooorreee great times together. Till jannah k :) insya Allah

And hannah, after 30mins swimming session, she is tired enough and started to cry. Tho massage session is sooo relaxing, yet lapar and ngantuk lebih win. Hence akk tu terpaksa urut cepat2. And hasil swimming tadi, hannah lena tidur untill now, 1215am. She only woke up for milk and fall asleep as soon as she finish. Huuu

Again, thank you ibu. And only Allah can reward all your kindness on us. Luv u!