My lecturer once said

My favourite lecturer told us something that makes me think of something today

"Mathematician handle things in two ways. First use the theorem strictly and trying their best to prove them while the other group will use their imagination / intuition to help them understand bout a specific problem. They dont bother much bout the theorem"

which side am I belong? I wonder. But what I am sure is I envy of people who are in the second group like the lecturer and the tutor here. I admire the way they handle the math problem. I remembered asking one tutor in the Science Space here, without using any formula he helped me solving the problem. The way he describe the situation and how he visualize the plane and described the situation vividly really mesmerized me.

But I dont think I am on the right path now. Now we are more focussing on the problem and try our best to settle them, following step by step given by the lecture without bothering much the mathematical image of it. Feel like a human calculator actually and it doest suppose to be like that. I want to be in the second group, who purely love mathematics and could settle the problem because I understand it not because I memorize the step. One day I'll be one, Insya ALlah

Everyone are special in their own way

"Everyone is special in their own way,

we make each other strong

we are not the same

we are different in a good way

together's where we belong"

"we are all in this together,

once we know that we are,

we're all stars,

and we see that,

we're all in this together,

when we stand, hand in hand make our dream come true

I was finishing my assignments with some of my friends. some of were chit chatting while holding their pen on and some are eating to keep them awake. Then one of my friend suddenly mention, "I want a be like you, sitting wuietely and focussing on the work rather than talking here and there like me". But I replied, what a boring world it would be if everyone is like me. It reminded me of a Barney song I watched years ago with my little Izzah, and I smile alone.

I wonder what does it feel like if everyone is the same. Everyone is quiete, would rather do his or her wrk rather than socializing, have the some likes and dislikes. Boring isnt i? Dont want to imagine it somehow=) Everyone is unique in their own way. Each and everyone of us have our own preference and way how we did our way, how we carry on living. And that is why you are special.

we are bound with our strength and our weaknesses. We live in the society so that we could learn from others and improve ourself to be a better person. If everyone is the same, how is it possible for us to change? It is the imperection we have that could complete others. For example, 'A' might be good at cooking but rather have a small appetite and 'B', a person with a big appetite might think that he or she has a bad attitude. But without realizing, it is you (B) who have completed A. What a perfect match and see, both A and B are special in their own way.

So dont feel bad about yourself. Keep your head high cause you are SPECIAL in you OWN WAY. Just like what the video said.

Marah? Check this out

Kadang-kadang ak tertanya-tanya, perlukah wujud perasaan marah itu dalam diri ini? Kenapa kita perlu menyempitkan lagi ruang hati yang sedia ada sempit ini dengan perasaan yang tidak bermanfaat itu? Buat sesak nyawa sendiri? Aku sendiri tidak mengerti. Kenapa manusia perlu ade perasaan marah itu?

Tapi jika difikirkan kembali, mungkin perlu sifat amarah itu ada dalam diri. Dengan sifat itulah ia menunjukkan sejauhmana 'concern' kita terhadap insan sekeliling. Seorang kawan akan marah akan kawannya, to show how concern she is toward her friend. Tapi bukankah perasaan itu hanya menyesakkan dada. Mesti rasa tak sedap duduk, tak salah. Apabila pandangan mata ini jatuh ke wajah tersebut, pasti hati terasa panas. That must be the feeling, kind of. Dont you think it kind of disturbing?

"dan taatilah Allah dan RasulNya dan janganlah kamu berselisih, yang menyebabkan kamu menjadi gentar dan kekuatanmu hilang dan bersabarlah. Sungguh, Allah bersama orang-orang sabar" [Al-Anfal, 8:46]

Why dont we salurkan perasaan marah itu dan sirami dengan air agar ia sejuk. Cuba fikirkan apa baiknya perasaan marah itu kepada kita? Siapa kita untuk membenci makhluk Allah yang lain sedangkan kita sendiri tidak sempurna? Apa hak kita untuk marah kerna semua manusia tidak sempurna, seperti kta juga? Emm that kind of reflection will mkae us realise that it is not worth to be angry at.

Masih tidak berhasil? Cuba kita fikirkan kesan perasaan marah kita itu terhadap orang lain. Adakah orang lain merasa selesa dengan perasaan kita itu? Contohnya, adakah ibu bapa kita akan merasa sedih dengan perasaan marah yang ada dalam diri kita itu? Jika Ya, dan jika anda benar-banar sayangkan orang terdekat anda itu, cuba untuk memaafkan individu tersebut itu. Kerna kita hidup bermasyarakat dan hidup is nothing like "it is between you and me only"! Setiap apa yang kita alami akan meninggalkan kesan terhadap orang sekeliling, dan itu menunjukkan manusia ini saling memerlukan

Masih tidak berhasil? Cuba renungkan hadis dibawah:-

Dari Abu Hurairah r.a, ada seorang lelaki berkata kepada Nabi s.a.w, "Berilah aku wasiat," Rasulallah s.a.w bersabda, "La Taghdhab (JANGAN MARAH)!" Beliau mengulang-ulang beberapa kali ucapan, "Jangan marah!" (HR Bukhari) Hadis ke 16 dalam hadis ke 40

Why dont kita sahut sabda nabi ini dan buktikan bahawa kita adalah umat Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Rasulallah telah tinggalkan 2 perkara selepas kewafatan beliau iaitu Al-Quran dan Sunnah yang mana jika kita ikut keduanya, Insya Allah we are on the right path. Jadi Sahutlah sabda nabi, La Taghdhab.

Kalau tidak berhasil juga, saya serahkan kepada yang Esa. Moga Allah melembutkan hati anda kerana hati ini milik Allah dan hanya DIA yang dapat melembutkannya. AKu berdoa, "Ya Allah, Engkau lembutkanlah kedua hati insan ini kerana hati mereka hanya milik Mu dan hanya Engkaulah yang dapat menyejukkan hati mereka, amin"

Wind of Change

We were talking around the table while completing our assignment due at 4.00pm just now. ANd one of my friends suddenly mention, she is afraid of going back to MAlaysia. I was like, what she is thinking actually? And I asked her why? She mention, "alhamdulillah she slowly begin to change herself when she arrive here" So I asked back, "then what is the problem since you change to be a better person?" "I am afraid that the environment wont support me" *sigh* And the conversation goes on and end at that table.

But my head are still digesting all those input of recent conversation now. And many things are playing in my mind. Like why does people afraid to change? And now when they do change, they are afraid of what the society are thinking about them? Then what is the purpose of changing? Are you changing for the sake of the society or you yourself are willing to change? Question after question pops up in my mind.

Now I am sitting on my bed wandering what is the perfect answer for those entire question. Changing is a hard process and the hardest step is the first step you're going to make. That situation apply to everyone and I believe everyone have their own experience about it. But after you overcome that step, then everything will goes well when you believe in yourself.

But the process will become a lot easier when you have a good environment supporting you. And alhamdulillah that is what we feel here. And alhamdulliah with everyone help, the ship we are in now are sailing smoothly. And the ship is close to their next destination and we are about to reach there, our home sweet home. But some of the crews are afraid of walking down. They afraid if they cant suit themselves with their people and the surrounding they used to live in. But the other parts of the crew are counting their days of kissing their homeland and I am one of the crew.

Why do they have to feel afraid? That is your people, your own family and I believe they would support you in everything you do. Whats more when it is a good thing. They will feel proud with and I believe so. "But how about our old friend?" My dear friends, do you become friend just to please them with your attitude? Do you become friends so that you could be as famous as her? or are you becoming friend for the sake of that sacret relation you want to have? If you answer the first two options, maybe you are wrong and you are not sincere enough in the relationship you have. Friendship is divine relationship where each and everyone saling memperingati antara satu sama lain. When you have a good friend, then they will accept who you are. They will still be your friend no matter how you are and support in everything you do. That is when you have a good friend.

So my dear friend, ignore what people might think of you and dont let people turn your guard's down. But it is as long as you are on the right path. Try to change for the better and remember Allah is always with you.