Do I really learn

Do I I really learn? I wonder.
Do I really understand?
Do I really know how to solve it?
;without being told what I am suppose to do?

If I am NOT,
does it mean that I LEARN nothing?
Doest it mean I am wasting my time learning for nothing
If I am NOT
Does it mean that everything being told is just like a wind?
come and go,
without leaving any trace behind
If anyone ask, have you LEARN this?
Yup, I once heard about it
But what is it all about?
I wonder myself

I believe this not the way how it should be
I knew I am not suppose to be this way,

Still wondering,
Trying to wraping everything in my memory,
Immersing myself in this,
Cause this is the path I chose
I'll face the new generation
(Insya ALLAH)
with the new atmosphere I am trying to bring
For them to know more What we are here for,
What we are suppose to be
This is the 'alat' that Allah fated me to
And I am trying
To really LEARN all these
SO that I will be a valuable asset for the Ummah
(INSYA ALLAH)
Insya Allah