Meeting @ Gallery

fuuuuhh at this moment, dalam rumah sendiri pun rasa nak menggigil,
sambil cuba untuk membuat tutorial, mata rasa macam menahan berat berkilo-kilo berat,
so i decided to write things which happen this morning..
n suddenly all the weight disappeared and my brain now functioning well
**sigh**wonder why is that??
back to the main purpose of writing, this morning as usual we had a meeting at 10am at Gallery Cafe. So i rushed walking down the hill after work, and try to be early; then I can grab a cup of caramel latte which now turned out to be my favorite lately, all thanks to my lovely roomate. Now I frequently alternate between mocha and caramel latter. Good ey:)
Finished with coffee, my lecturer walk in the cafe; he looks extraordinary fine today. Walking confidently as he normally is with smile on his face. Hmmm he must be up to something I guess.

So he started the meeting by asking us about our exam. How we feel about it. Anxious? Nervous? Confident? and all sorts of possible feeling. Hmm to be honest I haven't deeply think about it actually. Maybe because I haven't seriously start working on it. *sigh* (but it is OK, I do what I am suppose to do, Insya Allah.) But of course everyone is nervous. Afraid of what the outcome will be. Not prepared. and etc etc. Surprisingly everyone share the same thought, the same feeling. "Afraid of not being here next semester." OOOkkk. Now I am scared!! The same feeling had actually cross my mind. Not to deny it. I had the same thought few times. Feels miserable thinking about it. so don't think. Put it aside cause I can do nothing about it. Move to Rubbish bin folder please. And alhamdulillah He stopped me from thinking about it. From worrying about it. And life goes on, worrying level reduce and smile:)

But that is human ey. We live with what we feel and with what we thought We worried about things that has not yet to come, and we regret with things already happen. That is normal. Normal people feel like that. But we are not normal!! We are extraordinary in every sense. We are way better than that. Because we are a Muslim; a Mukmin indeed. We believe that everything has been written by our Greatest Planner. We believe that things happen for a good reason. We believe that He know what is best for Us: Because we are a Mukmin.

"So do not weaken and do not grieve, and you will be superior if you are [true] believers (mukmin)." [3:139]

But don't blame yourself for the bad feeling you have. Don't feel bad for what you are feeling now. Because everything happen for reason. But take a moment to 'istighfar'. Take a moment to reflect: without the short moment of 'negativity', maybe you wouldn't work hard to achieve your goal. Maybe for not having the 'down' feeling, you wont get up, take wudhu' and get back to HIM, talk to HIM, crying in front of HIM. Maybe for not having the slight fear in you, you will forget HIM and forget that HE has the remote control to change things for you. Without these you wont achieve that. Without now, there is next. Without HIM there is no us. That is the rule of thumb.

However, the only difference between a us; a Mukmin and someone else at this moment is when do we decide to gather all our strength and get up from that 'negativity'. A mukmin will quickly realize that we are not in complete control of our own live because we believe that there is Qada and Qadar; fated for us. A mukmin will quickly shake his head, istighfar and get back to HIM; ASAP. Because that is where we belong. Don't feel bad, don't be sad. Because He has the BEST plan for us. And have faith in HIM. Everything happen for a good reason.

"....."Do not grieve; indeed Allah is with us." And Allah sent down his tranquillity upon him and supported him with angels you did not see...."[9:40]

"O Prophet, urge the believers to battle. If there are among you twenty [who are] steadfast, they will overcome two hundred {ratio 20:200} . And if there are among you one hundred [who are] steadfast, they will overcome a thousand {ratio 100:1000} of those who have disbelieved because they are a people who do not understand." [8:65]

After hearing all our complains, He smile and with this sparkling eyes; full of confidence indeed he says; don't worry all of you will be here next semester, I am keen to work with and we will put the best effort together. He added, don't worry about things that has happen because you can do nothing about it. And to the thing that will happen, don't think too much (in neative terms) about it because it can do nothing as well. Might as well you don't think too much and just put the best effort. Definitely undergraduate paper is not the same with masters paper (700-level): deep inside I agree; a huge difference indeed. What a great lecturer he is :)

And I am right, my lecturer has a meeting afterwards. and on top of that he is taking his flight off to South America this weekend. Another reason to be extra 'smart' today. ^_^


OK I'm done with my writing, time to get back to work.

.::May Allah guide me and you in every breath we take and bring us closer to HIM, to HIS love, Because He is the most Gracious, most Compassionate ::.